I could spend my entire life worrying, and panicking about the fact that my body has taken a hit due to the selfishness that the actions of other people have caused.
Or I could just forgive them, and be as positive as I can be, understanding that no ounce of bitterness or hatred is going to make a difference to the outcome of my health.
Why be as apathetic as the rest of the broken assholes in the world?
It's a choice to be forgiving, nice, loving, and caring - and I'll take that over being a cold sheep any day.
A true renegade doesn't fall into the crowd - they remain true to their nature, even if their nature has been shattered for a little while. There's a great amount of strength that comes with holding your head above the water and not allowing yourself to drown with the emptiness, and sadness that people want you to suffocate in.
Today I did something I never thought I'd do - I travelled a ridiculous amount of miles and went all the way Llangollen.
It was an adventure, despite the mild travel sickness I seem to suffer when travelling by car.
I participated in the filming of a film, of which I played the part of a woman during 1945. It was really intriguing to get to explore a steam train, and film the same shot over and over again on the platform.
I had to hug my co-star, and that was a little distressing for me since I'm not really the touchy type. But never the less, I pushed through, and it was all a decent wrap!
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| The view from the train platform! |
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| All ready to start shooting some Post-World War II action. |
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| The quirky little lampost at the rail station. |
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| I was really proud of my make up today - did it myself, and I seem to be getting a knack of it now. |
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| Old habits die hard - my feet. |
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| One of the carriages we shot inside of. |
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| From what I witnessed this seem to be a pump of some sort which fed through some sort of fuel into the carriages. |
The remainder of the day consisted of then receiving a mocha - all the love for caffeine when you've been up since 5am!
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| It's all about the chocolate-coffee at 10.40 in the morning. |
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The real flower that I thought was artificial. It's actually quite
refreshing to see a restaurant go to that much effort for aesthetical accuracy. |
I then joined in with a mini hike across the River Dee, of which soon merged into my first professional photoshoot! With an autumnal theme - I'm super excited to see how the pictures finally turn out!
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There's something really quite soothing about seeing the froth
that forms from rapids. |
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| I feel like I watched this kayaker struggle to move for too long. |
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| Such scenery. |
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| I really love how trees still manage to grow within the current. |
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I really enjoy this shot, I managed to capture the mountains
in the distance. |
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| Again, I really love those lamp posts! |
I then went for some dinner at a local cafe: an omelette, chips, and a Welsh tea later, and I was being complicated by staff, and customers alike for my very vintage-individual look. That was a huge boost of confidence for me, since I've felt like I've lost my pizazz over the past few months- so it's great to see that my creativity with my looks is finally coming through.
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| #SoTotesHipster #YOLO #joke |
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| I was really impressed with the tea leaf catcher! |
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Loose leaf tea is definitely the best type of tea,
I tried to convince the server I could read her fortune haha. |
I then went to the museum (free entry-woo!) As usual, my admiration for local history came out. It was especially interesting to read up and see images of how the rail line had changed over the years, and to discover the first chain bridge! To be honest, it was a bittersweet moment for me. I couldn't help but have my mind wander and think of someone, and how it would've been a million times better if they'd have been there. I guess that's just the price of having met someone who had such an intellectually stimulating mind, and encouraging presence. The feeling of that loss is still quite poignant, and if I'm honest, it's taking all my strength not to bawl into tears right now. I think it's just so difficult, because throughout everything I always thought they'd be mature enough to still want a friendship - since I've always maintained a urgency for their happiness, and well being.
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I don't know why, but these castles reminded me of the sets for warhammer games.
I giggled to myself for a fair few minutes over it. |
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| I made a new friend. A maid. |
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| Creepy bastard #fakegrin |
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| Not sure what this is, but the rose motif attracted me. |
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Again, all I could think of was warhammer. And then greenstuff...
Speaking of which, must get some! |
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| Steam train- CHOO CHOO. |
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| Spinning wheel. Just call me Aurora. |
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Again, all I could think of was Warhammer... and then the fact that
I once spent £50 on a book. Out of love.
-Le Sigh- Feelings off now pls. |
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| Another friend of mine, rocking an awesome Welsh outfit. |
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Tools. Gah, all this museum stuff making me has feels!
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| I'm sure there are many other unlovable people out there. I'll survive this. |
Afterwards, a hike was had up some fields, through some farming land! It was knackering, and I managed it in your typical clothing and dolly shoes - none of this 'specialist' walking gear (ooh, burn!)
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Apparently they met a FUN GUY!
*mic drop*
-thank you, thank you, I'll be here all week- |
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| Really loved this little Church, so old. |
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Shot of the graveyard - managed to take some professional photos here too.
So watch this space :) |
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| Was a little worried it'd go a bit Silence of the Lambs at one point... |
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| Made a new friend, a stuffed kitten. |
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| From the top of one of the little farmer mountains. |
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| #SuchTouristry #YOLO #sarcasm |
Anyway, it's looking like that vlog series on local history is finally going to take place soon!
I've made more connections within the performing industry, met writers, and even some LeVayan Satanists! So, here's to being surrounded by people who stand up for who they are, and don't fall into the trap of going 'bah!'
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