As many people who know me on a personal scale, this is the year in which I came out of the closet. (Well, there's only so long that hanging out with Aslan in Narnia can make you appear happy). Despite the obvious acceptance around me, it was the most difficult for me to actually accept myself.
Though my sexuality still resides in the demisexual spectrum (as it's an attraction that's built up over time), it became very clear to me that I am the most content, most happy, most comfortable with a woman. And though it did not work out with my ex-girlfriend due to extremely unfortunate timing, this is something I will always be grateful for her for. Identifying as a lesbian was not something that was easy, it meant having to face that I stuck in emotionally draining and abusive relationships with males out of a lack of awareness of my own self worth. It meant facing the fact that I was weak enough to think that I wasn't allowed to be satisfied - emotionally or sexually. Now, I have come to terms with the fact that I have worth. I am a beautiful, interesting, intelligent and extremely nurturing person, and I do deserve to be happy.
This is something I want everyone else to feel within themselves. Regardless of sexuality, faith, ethnicity, or background. However, recent events have made it clear just how significant LGBTQ+ awareness is. Being 'different' isn't accepted by everyone, and it can still be frightening for a lot of people to face who they are. Identity is important, it helps us define who we are, and it helps us feel a sense of connection and belonging. No one likes to feel on the outside. I only hope that the LGBTQ+ society keeps their voices heard, and doesn't let the shock of recent events take away their wonderful, beautiful, lovely sparkle.
My thoughts go out to everyone who was affected by the recent shooting in Orlando. And to all my brothers and sisters: Stay Safe.
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