[Poetry] Goodbye my old friend (2009/10)

 Context: Because being on and off with a semi-platonic friendship of a girl that made you realise your sexuality is quite fluid to the point of it being external to gender really can cause a lot of hurt when you make the decision to walk away after five years. Some things become inappropriate even without a label, and more confusing that way.

Through all the ups and downs we've had
I believed we were to last
You were my friend- I believed in you
I believed what you said was true
Obviously I was so totally damn wrong
I know, because this friendship hasn't lasted so long
I listened to you, you listened to me
But it was all false, now I can see

 Although you used to hurt me, in the deepest wayI 
thought you were gonna be there, every day

I tried my best to help, I heard you cries
But you pushed me away, you fed me lies
You tried your best to help, you stopped me from being dead
But how can you believe her, over what i said
You know you've, known me longer
You'd think our friendship, would make us stronger

 But I can see now, I was part of your cruel game
Now nothing, will ever go back to being the same

So I’m sorry my old friend
But this is clearly the end...