So Hollow

So I like had the weirdest dream last night, involving my sister, and losing not just my teeth (only one actually wobbled out) but my entire mouth. It was disturbing, I could actually see nerve endings falling out with lumps of bloody mass straight out of my mouth. I actually woke up crying >_<

I think I'm absolutely petrified of losing my voice, and maybe that's what my mouth falling out represents?
And my sister being in it, she has absolutely no emotion, and I'm like the polar opposite of that.
I think sometimes I genuinely get so afraid of people breaking me, hurting me so much that I stop dreaming, I stop hoping, and I stop feeling all together. And ultimately I become like her.

Anyway, to save myself from going insane, I decided to listen to some of my band's old songs.
My singing is a bit terrible, but I actually like my lyrics.
They were real to me at that time, and still in many ways remain to be so.
There was a moment, after a lot of bad happened that I just shut myself away.
Lost myself a little bit too much into my music, I think.
And I started to feel just So Hollow (see what I did there, hur hur)

Anywhooooo

Probably not the best in audio quality, but I like to sing for the sake of singing.

I really dislike going to music studios and spending too much money on something that I enjoy to do.

Like, I give out all my songs for free - with the exception of anything for charity - so I don't see why recording such music should cost money. Music in all respects should be provided for free. Booyah!

If people really want to feel the energy of anything I sing, they need to hear me sing live, each performance is different than the last, because each time a different mood takes over, or the same mood affects me in a different way.

Or sometimes I just get more confident in front of a microphone.

I guess this has reached that time
when everything withers and dies
When things cave in
and we're left sitting in a remainder of s....i...n

Oh Angel please

Everything's becomes so Hollow
I found I lost my soul
Broken, hmmm, So Hollow
Hmmm, hmmm,hmmm, oh
Everything's become so Hollow
I can't seem to find my soul

I left the danger far behind
But still it manages to find
All the places that I hide
and Oh, I can't seem to cry
I'm calling to an Angel
I really need a saviour

Everything's becomes so Hollow
I found I lost my soul
Broken, hmmm, So Hollow
Hmmm, hmmm,hmmm, oh
Everything's become so Hollow
I can't seem to find my soul
Please, save me
I am pleading
almost with the devil
I really need an Angel
hmmm

Since Everything has become so Hollow
I can't find my soul
Since everything's so hollow
I need a saviour
hmmm So Hollow, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm